A long overdue update

I finally went back to the doctors this week. I've had some time away in Sydney, and honestly, I was putting it off. I guess going to my doctor to talk about options and what my next steps are is really admitting something is wrong. I feel out of control of my body, and I hate that. But then I started bleeding in between my period, and I've been getting some pretty severe pain, so back I went.
My doctor was really pleased with my weight loss (8kgs now!) but concerned by the bleeding, so now I have a fun round of having bloods taken, and an ultrasound on Tuesday afternoon.
And I'm actually really nervous about it. I worry they might find something sinister, or something that makes my chances of having another baby naturally even harder. "Think positive", I know, I know. I wish it was just that easy. I'm so thankful to have such a supportive husband, a gorgeous daughter who makes me smile and wonderful, understanding friends at times like this, otherwise I truly think I'd lost my mind.
I'll update with the results when  I have them. Prayers are appreciated.
Have a great week.

Support, lack of sleep and 4kgs down.

I was talking to a friend yesterday about my support networks. Without going into too much detail, my Mother has a lot on her plate at the moment, so I'm feeling a little out in the cold from that aspect. But then again, my Mother isn't exactly the squishy, loving type anyway. I am lucky to have an amazing husband (who is very supportive, even when I'm talking about cervical mucous and LH surges), some friends and one family member in particular that are great to talk to about my issues, no matter if it's about this, or anything else that's going on in my life. I also made friends with a wonderful bunch of women via the Huggies website while I was pregnant and we've since moved our conversations to a group on Facebook. 
I tend to withdraw when things get me down. I don't like to burden anyone with things that are bothering me. This has actually cost me a few friendships in the past, because frankly I'm not really sure HOW to talk about things that are upsetting me, and I really hate getting upset in front of people. I find it hard to talk to my best friend about things. I really need to start working on that side of me.

I also really need to start sleeping at a decent hour. Last night I was feeling really sick after too many coffees, so had planned to go to bed really early and wake up feeling nice and refreshed. But in true Lauren style, I was still sitting on the computer at 11pm (buying tickets for Kate and I to go see Magic Mike on a Mum's night out, among other things). The problem is that when we get Ellie into bed I tend to get a bit excited about "me time", although "me time usually includes laundry, house tidying and animal wrangling. One day I'd just like to sit in my house, alone, with it all clean and nothing to do. Haha, fat chance of that in the next 20 years!

My weight loss is also still falling, which is wonderful, especially considering my exercise has been less than admirable in the the passed week. I'm currently 4kgs down and very excited about that. Only a million more to go! What? I'm not prone to exaggeration at all!